I had every good intention to write 1,000 words a day for two months, but I had so many stresses in my life at the time I made the promise to myself that I decided to put that pledge on hold. Yesterday, I picked “Tiny Shadows” back up. After exporting what little I’ve written to my Kindle, I noticed the first back-up date of the file was nearly a year ago. A year! I think a year is far too long to work on a book, at least a standard-length book. I think a book can and should be written in a much shorter time than a year; any longer than that and the idea starts to become stale. The editing and everything else may certainly push it well past the year mark, but a year is just too long to be dawdling around starting the thing.

Then I started reading the thing, and it’s horrific.

This, I think, is why it’s so hard for anyone to actually write a book. It takes so long to get the words out, and then the words aren’t right, and editing—let’s not even get started on editing.

I would be lying if I said I wasn’t experiencing a little self doubt right now.

Can I do this? I’ve written eight other books, but six of them were NaNoWriMo projects, which of course automatically disqualifies them from being taken seriously (they’re too short and they need a lot of TLC). The other two were written in high school, and over half of one those was wiped out from my parents’ computer (I’m assuming Dad saw a file called “Two Years Til Eternity” and assumed he had mistakenly downloaded some bad porn).

I really want to do this. And I’m past all the things that were holding me up—school, moving, a demanding toddler. Okay, the demanding toddler is still around, but she’s gotten to the point where she can at least keep herself fairly well entertained. So where do I start? Do I start all over? Do I do a little more mind mapping, a little more background, until I get the feel for it again—or do I dive right in?

I think my heart was in the right place with the 1,000 words a day, but I also took a detour when I realized my prologue was turning into a Part One. Perhaps a week or so of getting serious, pulling my characters together, re-thinking my starting point, and then back to the grind. A thousand words a day. And no editing yet; I just need to put words on paper! (How many of you think that is actually going to happen?)

August 15. I’m kicking it back into high gear on August 15.

I can do this…right?

3 thoughts on “to dip or to dive: starting over after too long away

  1. Yes, you can do it. And yes, it’ll be horrific. The first draft always is. And the second and the third… And then one day, wow! It starts to look good! Wishing you all the best to get to that point.

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